It's funny how I don't get that tingly feeling when I see you around anymore.

School ended at 4:15 pm today )): *yawns* So anyway, had quite a lot of fun in school. I know, super contradicting to the sad face, hehs. Sharon brightened up my day with the note she wrote for me :D She passed it to me early in the morning, and that made my whole day rather perfect despite some not really nice things that happened at the later part of the day. I wonder, why is it raining so so much these few days? I don't like >< So cold!

"Three's a crowd"

I guess its rather hard for 3 people to actually get along without one person actually feeling left out at one point or another. But still, people need space, right? I don't think people should actually get jealous just cos they feel left out for just half an hour. Ohwells, I don't know, I guess I'm in no position to judge ;)

Oh and to that certain person, please don't keep thinking I like you or something lah, its just so despicable and low life -.- 

I think I'm getting pretty irritable these days >< Its not my fault though, eoys are coming. 

Dumb exams.

GAP was okay, Trina and I were squishing our sponges to form some mushrooms/toadstools which supposedly ended up as trees /: Yeying and Wenxin were busy cutting and folding pieces of torn paper :) They were super funny, Wenxin was like "In wenxin's factory, everything is done perfect, etcetc" and Yeying was like "You're so stupid!" and Wenxin's face was like *half smiling, half shocked, big eyes opened even wider* LOLOL SUPER FUNNY. Well, that is, if you get what I was trying to convey, :)

Huanglaoshi was super pissed today, she was like “看到老师已经在课室还慢条斯理似的！快点可以吗！” Well I made it much much nicer, she sounded really horrible when she said that. Of course, there were several other things she said to my class which made me come to the conclusion that she was in a super bad mood. Tsk. Just when I thought she was turning nicer //:

I find it pretty interesting how feelings change so so quickly.

Like yeah.

Okay fine, I shouldn't explain too much cos if I start, I'll end up sitting in front of the comp for a long long time, which I'm desperately trying not to do so. 

Dumb exams.

Went home with Yuxuan after school, she was in her crazy mood -.- Super crazy mood. Sheeshh, ><

But is okay, I needed some people to go crazy in front of me :)
Ohya, speaking of crazy, I THINK WENXIN, BRYAN, LIJIN AND I GOT ACCEPTED INTO MPP. But the thing is, we've got 2 other people from 2J coming into our group. AND WENXIN, BRYAN AND LIJIN, THE GIRL ISN'T JINGYI. I TOLD YOU MY HEARING IS FINE.
Tsk.
"I bet his ego isn't as huge as his ___" whee.
*innocent look*
what?
Gosh, I really love my MPP mates :')
Heard that, wenxin? :')

I don't think there's anyone more beautiful than who you actually are deep down inside, cos that's just you.

I think you shine, in your very own way, and I don't really bother if others don't see it.

Cos I do. I see you shine.

And wanna know something else? 

Thank you for always being there for me, I really appreciate it :')

Dear you, 

I know how you often feel insecure and ugly and stupid and dumb and foolish etcetc, but hey, here's something I wanna tell you. I don't think I'll ever say this to you in real life, cos it'll come out really ridiculously mushy. Just wanted to say, you're really pretty. I guess you don't see it, cos that's the way you are, always bringing yourself to such low standards. You're someone really special to me too, and I think this is something you should know :) Thank you for always being there when I needed you. Ohyes, let me tell you another something. When the earth is filled with screams and cries, and if I ever discover another paradise, I'll take you there with me too :) Sounds familiar? *winkwink* :)

I know I'm not bulletproof or perfect or brave or anything special worth bragging, but I'll always be there for you. So even if you're sinking, I'll push you out of the waters first :) 

There's a million other things I wanna say to you, but I'll save that for another time. You don't have confidence in yourself, and that really irritates me. Why is it that you just can't see how special you are?

Oh and if you ever find out it's you I'm talking about, 100% cheesiness guaranteed! ;D

heheee. Smile more, you're really cute when you do.

p.s/ I'll run back to the mental institution to get you out of there too. If you actually remember that part x)

Love,

chiyin.