Everyone's just acting, I'm glad you know. However, I guess you think you're always right, so here's what I think. I think you're equally fake, trying to be someone else. Who cares so much about climbing the social ladder? The way you're doing things, you'll never be able to get the favour you yearn for. Sorry, just saying.
And oh, be thankful I dedicated this entire 4 lines to you, you don't deserve it, not even a little bit. Sorry again.
Having computing lessons now, and I'm like turning my head every 3 minutes to see if Mr Low is looking, oops ;x So anyway, I feel super sad now //: Oh jeeshh, I'm feeling sad these few days. More of frustrated, I guess. There's just something in my heart or tummy, whichever. Its super heavy, and it doesn't seem to disappear. I do feel better when I talk rubbish though, I guess by doing so, I'm kinda letting out the air? Or weight? I don't know. Aishh, I think I'm going crazy.
I guess I hate this world, this whole society. I don't understand why my feelings are always played with, by different types of people. And when I move on, they barge in and somehow want me back..? Its alright though, I've learnt to become numb to these. Like today. I think I did a pretty good job avoiding eye contact ^^ Ohwells. Maybe I'm becoming more of a mean person to certain people.
I realized that another of my good friends cried last night, because of a guy. I'm starting to hate guys/: Haishh. I think I should get this awfully selfish thought away from my mind before it goes in too deep. I mean, how can they hurt girls so easily? I hate it when my friends cry over worthless jerks like him.
The him doesn't refer to anyone in particular, but yeah. :B My brother says I shouldn't change my attitude to my friends, who are guys. I'm not gnna listen to you on this one, dear brother of mine. ;D
I don't need to suffer anymore pain. I don't even think I deserve even a little bit of it. Just saying.
Eoys are coming, as in, really really coming. So today, I'm gnna hide away in my room, switch on the air-con and study. Like some robot~
Then I'll use the computer only after dinner, so I won't feel so guilty, hohoho.
:D
