Friday is the only day I can really let go of myself and do all the things I wnna do. I think I deserve to have more days to rest, sigh. Today wasn't a good day though, I cried during practice ): I swear, the only things that can make me really cry in school are:
1) EDS
2) Results
3) Friends
Maybe 2 and 3 aren't really suitable for me cos it's been a long time since I actually cried for those reasons /: I mean, I always manage to control my tears no matter how screwed my results are, or how messed up my friendship with people are. But when it comes to EDS, the tears just flow down. Omg I'm starting to feel emotional again, shit. I know how few people can actually understand this, but EDS makes me feel alive, it makes me feel happy. When I'm with them, I feel genuinely happy, I know I can trust them, and that's why I say everything that's on my mind. The seniors and juniors aren't just our seniors/juniors, they are our friends, our good friends, our advisors, someone we can rely on. Anyway, shan't elaborate much, but watching my seniors cry made me feel so horrible and sad inside.
Apart from more days to rest, I think I need a candyfloss anytime soon. I lovelovelove candyfloss, they're just so fluffy and sweet, hehe. So, everyone kinda cheered up after a super long talk together and we started to come up with more funny scenes for the play! I really hope the audience will actually laugh. It isn't gnna be nice if they give us the "wts?" face. Haha (:
Oh and you know my carrot/cucumber plan? It failed. Yeah, what were you expecting anyway? I ate almost all up till my lunchbox was only left with 2 slices of cucumbers and 1/4 of the carrots left. Oh weeeelll. I tried my best, anymore and I was sure to puke, no kidding. I had that feeling for the rest of the day and to make things simpler, I didn't even wnna look at another slice of carrot.
I've been reading more and more blogs recently! Kenny even said I was a scary stalker, but THAT'S NOT TRUE COS I DON'T STALK 24/7. Even if I did, that was ages ago!
So true!! Guys are so weird at times, even my brother. Half of the time I'm like, "Why did you have to be so mean to him/her?!", and he replies, "Don't care them lah!"
YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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But s'okay, I'm happy that Poop and I are sort of getting closer? I don't know, maybe it's just me, but I'm glad that things aren't that awkward and formal between us :') *does happy dance*
And then there's Pee. /: Sometimes I think it's my fault for making us become like how we are now, but I'm so fickle minded and selfish and I may take things for granted. I guess I drove you away? I'm not sure, but we haven't been talking much and that feeling's weird. Oh well, I had my reasons for avoiding you and stuffs, so... I'm not gnna let myself regret it :>
Oh and I should change my font. It doesn't look nice on the ipod or iphone! Okies, niteynights, shall complete all my work by tomorrow (I hope) so yeps! Here's your bedtime story kenny and marcus! Thankyou for cheering me up today too, you guys are the best, seriously <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
