I'm pretty excited for tomorrow/Youth day concert because there's eds after that, and then we're gnna stay back with the dancers and have dinner with all of them :D I'm a happy happy happy girl.
So anywaaayyy, today was a good day too, I like Thursdays, especially the ones where school ends at 2:15pm :) Went down to the canteen to have lunch with Kennedy Marcus and Clarence. Joked around with Kaili too, hahahhahaha. I think she was pretty embarrassed cos we kept saying "Don't think so!" quite loudly! Hmm Yongzi, Phuan and Ziyi joined us later on. Discussed a bit about handover, then Phuan had to go off for awhile & ohmy it was C H A O T I C at the table
1) kennedy started the story of the milky way and cows
2) clarence started playing with the blue paper and adding random stuffs into the "story"
3) Marcus was comparing the cow to yongzi /:
4) and everyone was basically just shouting "shut up!" across the table
Poor poor ziyi. The whole time he wanted to talk he couldn't because Marcus would go, "SHUT UP! I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING! SHUT UP!"
Then did stupid things before doing a bit of running man :) But it was a very failed attempt hahahha. The stupid things were reaaaally stupid, ughhh. I think we annoyed some people, but most of the time yongzi and I were like, "Nooooo!! Shushhh!"
Then we left school at about 4pm :)
Going home yesterday was pretty much torturous for me. Of course I like going home alone at times, but yesterday was just bad.
I kept thinking and thinking and thinking to the extent where it hurt so horribly /:
I don't even know why I'm trying so hard, but its as if one wrong move could send everything crashing down. In fact, I can sense it already, I don't even know whether or not to save this once more. Is there even any hope at all?????? I'm tired of feeling so anxious and insecure around you, and you make me so sad at times.
Told myself it was gnna be the last time I'd be like this because of you, but just today, I found myself faced with this huge dilemma. Sighh.
