"Jie, good luck for your exams later, wish u all the best. Just remember to stay calm and don't forget anything u have learnt. If u cant do a math question just skip it first, the others are more important. For science, just do your best and score high since u are confident in this subject. Go for it!"
this week has finally come to an end, and TGIF hasn't felt so right since a long time ago. It was a crazy, tough and stressful week, but we made it!!! :)
just thought i'd come on for a while because I didn't feel like doing any work tonight, and I wanted to say thank you to certain people.
- Yongzi
- Junhong
- Xuanzhu
- Loraine
- Jin rui
and my family :)
So many ups and downs i experienced within 5 days and it was quite horrible because i felt as if I was losing my mind especially for the past 2 days. I felt like I didn't have time and yet there were so many things i needed to complete, and the next thing i knew i was staring at my notes blankly.
it's just that feeling that creeps into me once in a while, especially once i start thinking too much. What if I can't finish this? What if I don't do well? I can't do this anymore, what am I going to do?????
these thoughts just start filling my head and I can't do anything once I get nervous, which makes me even more afraid because i can't absorb anything. Cabbed home yesterday because it was getting to me and it was probably the first time I felt so helpless. I was scared and angry with myself for being so weak and useless but all these conflicting emotions just made things worse.
came home, and thank god i had my brother because the moment he saw me step in he sat down right beside me and comforted me. Parents told me to just "try your best" because they understood, and although i felt relieved to hear that, i felt really bad and guilty.
nonetheless, I'm thankful that this week is over :) thanks jh for helping me out with history for without your help i wouldn't have been able to attempt the question at all, yongzi for making me feel better with your presence, xz and loraine for guiding me back onto the right track each time i felt lost, and jin rui for your reassurance and words of comfort, and for walking me all the way out to flag the cab :)
i'm grateful for my dad who kept telling me not to cry because it broke his heart, and for understanding and encouraging me when i needed it most. I'm thankful for my mum who sat down with me and brought fruits and water to my room and told me not to stress myself out, and i'm blessed with a brother who rushed to my side immediately even when i didn't have to tell him that i needed him to.
Alright, that pretty much concludes whatever i wanted to say :) gnna go wash my face, brush my teeth and then go to bed! g'night everybody and remember to keep your head up and heart strong :)
