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okay so the other day I decided to unprivate my blog for a while bc I felt the need to post something somewhere and I crated a dayre account but I realized I don't like dayre and speaking of dayre I actually created a wordpress a few months back and I have 3 posts there but ok wordpress is too complex for me to comprehend. And then I realized I couldn't view my blog using safari bc I wasn't logged in (it was still private then) so i decided to make it public for my convenience and then I think I went to bed forgetting to private it again and on 2 consecutive days marcus and kennedy asked me about my blog???!??! i felt quite uncomfortable hahaha sigh

But anyway, that's not the point. I think I'm going to leave it as it is for now but I am also going to be very very very honest with my opinions and what not from now on so whatever I can curse if i want to I can say whatever I want and there will be less pictures and all that bc nobody has time to sync all the pics from March (???) till now. And although it feels quite odd to say that I'm going to "curse if I want to" bc I have never ever used the f word out loud at anyone until somewhere in the middle of this year when everything was damn stressful and gjbrvkjdsbnink HAHAHA and then I discovered the magic in cursing lulz it actually makes u feel temporarily released??

aiya actually now that I think about it I've used it more than once and whatever man whatever 

today was quite a bad day bc I cried in school lol dammit ZZZZZ ugh but on the positive note I finally voiced out my opinions so maybe it wasn't that bad after all. Doing my WR now and still feeling rather inadequate and afraid but things are better (I hope). Also can I just say that the other day I saw Jarod's ig post with his girlfriend and Alicia said she looked like me LOL WTS NO NO no NO HAHAHA and his caption was so goosebumpy hahaha but alright alright alright I shall not say anything more

Also, my dark eye circles are increasing in intensity with each passing day and I used to feel quite upset about it but the other day I stood in front of the mirror and told myself "actually u look not bad with dark eye circles" and then I proceeded to smile at myself HAHAHA gosh the things I do 

AND ALSO I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO SOUND SELFISH BUT I HATE HOW SO MANY PEOPLE ARE PRETENDING TO LOVE READING LIKE NO OK NO THERE IS A DIFFERENCE IN READING ONE MAINSTREAM BOOK AND READING A VARIETY ZZZZZZZZ SO ANNOYING!!!!! and also :-( I don't like sharing my books with people or telling them what I'm reading :-( :-( so it takes A LOT for me to lend my book to you and when I do pls pls handle it with care bc the last time i lent my books to someone they came back with folded covers and nothing like how they looked when I passed it to that someone :-(