November you have
taken the load off my shoulders
wiped my mind clean
returned me my health
but you have also
erased my motivation
opened my eyes
made me realize
i am not cut out for realism
November you are gone
but do you know that
instead of
math books
literature books
biology
I am filling my head with stories of a different world
and i don’t want to get out
I am seeing the Pantheon in gold light
I am breathing Chiangmai’s air
I am not here
November you have given me
time
to spend with my loved ones
time
to find my laughter
time
to think for myself
but now there is no more of you
