On the bus to Tampines now and I decided to just draft a post while I'm at it. It's been quite some time since I last blogged about how my day went - nowadays it's mostly my thoughts and words spun together. I watched Leaves at HCAC last night with Rory, Kaili, Natania and Yifeng. We were there to support Ranice and Jamie. I wonder if there really is something wrong or different about my friendship with Jamie, or if I'm being too sensitive. Anyway, after the 4 hours out I concluded that I maxed out my socializing capacity for the day (how tragic, haha). My head felt so heavy and I just couldn't seem to participate in the conversation. The play was good - I loved the set in particular, but I didn't quite enjoy it as much as the rest did. The heaviness and the family conflicts in the play just didn't resonate with me and I felt so drained of positivity after it ended. (This shall be kept to myself). Speaking of plays, I watched R&J (Shakespeare in the park) with Yifeng the other day! Once again, I didn't really enjoy myself as much as he did. Most of the time I was spending time in my head or looking at him and his reactions. I guess it was partly because of the secondary school boys seated behind us who clearly never read the text before and were making all sorts of unnecessary remarks that completely ruined the mood. Oh, and I recently met up with F4! I headed to Kwave after spending the whole morning at the dermatologist (THAT will have a special part in this post) for dinner with Lchoo, Yifeng and Moh. Had dinner at MFM which wasn't actually really satisfying. Then we had sogurt and talked the night away. Ha ha. I'm kidding, we left at about 10. Nonetheless, I laughed till my cheeks hurt and that kind of feeling definitely tops Chiyin's list of things to live for.
(might as well add a picture of me with my old flame, taken in March)
Today, I met Marcus, Kennedy and Clarence at the airport which has officially become our 老地方 as termed by Marcus. It's quite true considering how many times we visited that place to study. We had lunch in the staff canteen, at our usual table (the place we sat at on the last night of our A levels mugging days) because the entire place is closing down after 11 years of operation. :( It's pretty strange, I always always always look forward to seeing them and I'm always feeling excited the night before. But when I'm with them I realise that I feel a little hollow and unhappy because I'm always thinking about how little time we have together and how I'm not going to see them for a significantly long time. That was a lot of "always"s. But yeah - how overly attached LOL. I have always been more of a listener when it comes to conversations with people, but I tend to go on and on and on with people I'm close to. Nowadays, I stay quiet when I'm with them because they launch into speech that is rich with experience and a life beyond school. Not that I mind, because I try to paint images in my head of the things they do and the things they see whenever they talk about their army lives. At the same time, I look at them and I notice how much they have changed physically and how much has stayed the same - the way their habits always surface and the way their eyes turn form half-moons when they laugh. It's comforting and familiar -- their presence. I like that a lot.
Oh yes. I almost forgot about mentioning the trip to the dermatologist. Last week was my final consultation with Dr Ong!!!!! Imagine me throwing confetti everywhere and dancing in the middle of the rainbow-shower. Now imagine me halting abruptly, wide-eyed, before picking the pieces with sagging shoulders. Yea. She might as well have thrown a bucket of water at me when she told me straight up that I had to continue using the prescribed medicine until menopause. Yup, that's right meno freaking pause. The conversation went like this:
Dr. Ong: "Very good, your complexion is almost as good as before, except for a bit of scarring that will go away. You don't have to see me anymore until you notice any bad changes!"
Me: "Really??! Then when can I lay off the medication?"
Dr. Ong: "Until menopause."
--------------- CUE SILENCE IN WHICH CHIYIN IS ABSORBING HER WORDS AND TRANSLATING HER SHOCK INTO A WIDE-EYED FACIAL EXPRESSION --------------------
Me: "menopause......?"
Dr. Ong: "Yea, if you don't use the medicine then everything will come back. You wanna try? First three months, you won't see any pimples. After that, you'll be back to square one."
Me: "but that's 30 or 40 years.............."
Dr. Ong: "yup."
Okay. The only reason why I was in such shock was because I was never expecting myself to be attached to the 7 bottles of medication for as good as half of my life. I'd be more than willing to apply the cream and lotions every night/ morning since I'm already so used to the routine, but each time I replenish them, my wallet weeps in sorrow. Just that day, I whispered adieu to $239 after my consultation and 4 bottles of medication. Imagine this for the next 30 years or so. Sigh.
I have truly lost count of the number of Qiji popiahs I have eaten this year. I am still not sick of them. No prizes for guessing my other 2 obsessions. I went through the phase of having 2 sweet potatoes everyday for a couple months. My mango obsession was really recent and I haven't actually gotten over it. Can mango season last forever?????? I kid you not when I say I'm obsessed - I ate 4 mangoes consecutively for breakfast.
Since I'm at it with the sudden vomit of pictures and texts, I might as well mention that I have also been really active! :-) I started swimming after eons of not stepping into the swimming pool because hashtag self-conscious probs 101, and I rekindled my love for cycling. I also started gymming (but I haven't gone in 3 weeks...........) and pilates! I made a trip to decathlon and spent my money on a yoga mat and a couple of exercise clothes and that was probably one of the best decisions ever. I'm using the mat almost everyday now since I haven't been going to the gym. And I do feel myself getting stronger when I can get through Blogilates' videos without stopping! :>
And of course, life is not all about good choices. Sometimes we make bad choices and one of mine is purchasing the USS student pass. I should have trusted my gut instinct and went ahead with buying the day pass instead!! :( how do I put it. Okay. I'm the kind of person who loves roller-coaster rides. The more thrill, the better! USS is too small and there aren't many really scary or thrilling rides except the human and cylon rides. So.... yea. Sigh.
