School makes me feel so exhausted at times and it's like it drains me physically and mentally and sometimes i feel so tired that i don't want to talk to anyone or do anything by the time i get home.
sat in the audi today for the whole day and it was just talks and talks and lectures and information thrown at us. I didn't like it at all. I don't feel like i've absorbed anything and this will probably seem really whiny but really?? we're 16 year olds still trying to find our places in the world, trying to find ourselves and yet we're expected to make life changing decisions. I hate making decisions - I'm indecisive, I'm fickle minded, I can't make up my mind and if there's any form of running I'm good at, it's running away from reality.
I didn't like the PW teacher who spoke today because he was so realistic, wait, too realistic. I don't like it when people shove reality into my face and tell me to deal with it because I hate reality and I hate the way things work here. I hate how we study to get a decent job and if you don't do well it shows that you aren't smart enough and if you don't get good grades or a high GPA you don't get a good job and your whole future is just screwed.
everytime i think of this it scares me so much because almost all my friends have their future planned (in some way or another) and they know what they want to do 10 years down the road while i'm still taking one step at a time, which clearly is not enough. I don't even know what I want to do and I don't know what to choose. I hate this.
I don't want to go to school because it's tiring and it's all about academics and As and passing and projects and even though there's CCAs and what not, school just sucks and I hate school. I like the people here and I love it when I get to talk to them and all that but ever since the beginning of the year all i look forward to when I go to school is for the bell to ring so I can go home.
Wanted to tweet "I'm so tired" but I thought it was inappropriate because eoys are over and other Sec4s are having their o's so who am I to complain???? Also, after today's lectures about how SH life is so much more busier and tiring, why am I complaining? This is so insignificant and tiny ugh just suck it up chiyin!
you know what I just read through this post and i realized how whiny it sounds and I hate it when i feel so messed up so you know what i'm just going to bathe and watch my show and not care anymore
